Pisi ehe jewelry is named after the doctors and nurses who helped us on the journey of our premature (born 26+1) baby Susanna.
Moon. Why Moon? Because Anžella was mostly working night shifts. I often woke her up during her break when I took my milk to the fridge and made some noise.
Anžella is very positive and always does her best so mothers and premature children can go home quickly. One of the most important things a mother can do is to offer food from a bottle instead of a nasogastric tube. Even if the child only eats a few ml. Anžella always followed the chart with her finger and was happy when she saw that feeding from a bottle went well. When I was lazier (it was really convenient to put the nasogastric tube running at 3 am), she still encouraged me to offer more, "the child will cope"!
I think Anžella has a good eye for mothers. A few days before I got home from the hospital, Anžella asked me why "I'm so serious". I remember getting up from bed and a click went through my mind. I tried to look at the ceiling and keep calm, "Oh my God, you're not going to cry". Of course I did and it lasted all day! I just couldn't hold it in. I've never experienced anything like this before. I just didn't understand why I was crying.
Later on, analyzing it, it was all the feelings and thoughts of the entire hospital experience that finally started to overwhelm me. What to you mean "why am I serious"? I've been in the hospital for three months now and I don't want to take my baby home without a monitor, maybe she'll have apnea at night and I'm sleeping soundly and there's no monitor to tell me that she is dying? I don't want to go home.
By keeping up the facade all the time that everything is fine with us, I hadn't allowed myself to experience all my feelings. When they came, I quickly hid them. At that moment, I got the order form the doctor to leave the hostpital.
When I returned, I was able to share my thoughts with my loved ones, Anžella, and also with my doctor.